Insights and Reflections

Many of us are faced with the challenge of choosing how to move forward. The lucky few are able to see a way, the rest of us are left hanging in limbo or plagued by frustration. We all wish for an easier way, a simpler answer, a guide or instruction booklet. Why is it that we have this need? Why do we feel cheated when things don't work out? There seems to be the perspective that we will get what we expect or we deserve certain results.

Now I'm not one to go shouting life's not fair. I truly b...
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Without support there are more severe limitations, or let's say challenges to confront. For instance, having different values to your family. What keeps you going when there's no steam in your engine? Who's to say? Not that it's impossible to push forward and form a new support network, but what do you do with the conflict you're experiencing feeling the need for external support and it's not coming from the source you want it to?

There hasn't been an easy solution for many people in this situ...
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I've discovered a very strange state of being. It seems to be very prevalent in those around me, so naturally it must exist within myself as well. I've named this state 'pro-stagnant'. Basically it skips past laziness and skirts around pro-activity, to find itself being actively working towards inaction. Strange. The motivation seems to be a desire for peace and calm, and the vision is one of harmony and enlightenment. However, the actual execution of this state of being is interpreted as sim...
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Like pickles, emotions can be sweet or sour. We also tend to keep our emotions in bottles sometimes. The difference between emotions and pickles is that emotions tend to expand when in a jar, while pickles tend to stay just the same fresh and crunchy. Picking an emotion out of the jar is like reaching into a lucky packet...you often get a surprise. While theoretically the emotion is in the jar to keep it safe, it often backfires when we least expect it. It's confusing to think that we're keep...
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When does it matter that I'm not perfect? It always seem to matter that I'm not perfect when things are bad. It never seems to matter that I'm not perfect when things are good. When things are good they're always perfect, but at the same time perfection doesn't exist. Seems like a contradictory believe and value system to me. It says that good = perfect, bad = imperfect and everything = imperfect. So since good is part of everything then good = perfect and imperfect.

It's no wonder we experie...
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People tell me that my purpose may not make sense to me, but it sure as hell has a significant impact on others. I'm called intense, deep, complicated, strong, challenging, difficult, moody, different, great, inspiring, open, energized... To me I am normal. Yet I am not normal like other people. I am normal only like me. Others all seem normal like each other. What makes me see myself as different and normal, yet still weird and strange, but not unique? This perception thing is tricky to mast...
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Each of us has a story. We carry our story with us and repeat it over and over so that we feel safe and warm. Things make sense when we can make a story out of them. The trouble is when your story starts to bring you down. You don't like yourself anymore and don't want to live your life. It's pretty depressing. In fact it sucks. There's nothing anyone can say to change the story or make it better. The best we can hope for from others is for them to negate our feelings as being unfounded, yet ...
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Have you ever had one of those moments when you suddenly become aware of yourself? You're jumpstarted into the present moment for some or other reason and realize you're doing something weird, strange or out of character. Whether it's from fear, shock, adrenalin, change, excitement or the like, you forget about whatever you were thinking, doing or feeling, and are absolutely focused on right now. It's an interesting experience.

Interesting perhaps because it makes me wonder about my chemistry,...
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I hope for your sake you you're alive, thriving in fact! Life isn't much fun when all you can do is survive. We can surprise ourselves with what we can handle when it comes down to it, but mostly there's always something to complain about. An interesting fact about our perspectives is that we often look to others as the cause of our problems. The blame falls on others easier than it does on ourselves. We never want to see ourselves as failures or disappointments. When this happens we can get ...
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